Rainy season is here
It has been raining all day long and I'm recovering from a flu :( I've been having some eyes bags or dark circles(dont really know which is which) recently so I just went Watson's and kinda splurged a bit. Well not really splurged, I'm still studying but the amount I spent was pretty much good self-indulgence for a student :). Watsons is having a 20 percent sale now, and for the pea-size brain people, no not on the new arrivals so grab all your essentials from there before the sale ends!
I've been thinking about my life pretty much lately. Oh no, do I sound old?? I'm thinking if I'm taking a path that is leading me to nowhere. For close friends reading this, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I didnt think about my life much when I was back in my secondary school days. I didnt think about what career I want to embark on in the future or how many kids I wanna have or what is the maximum age I want to get married. But now, it seems like I'm thinking of so many of these things that I feel like I'm a 21 year old trapped in the body of a 40 year old. Sounds scary? Yea, kinda sounds like a line from a ghost story.
Sometimes, I feel like being bold and just go ahead and change whatever parts of my life I'm not happy with. But I always hold back for god knows what reason. I'm sure many of us feel the same way. How many times have you stayed in a relationship where you know you deserve someone better? Or the times you feel so much like changing to another job because you dont find it fulfilling enough? Speaking from a student's point of view, have you ever choose to go to a school which really isnt what you had in mind but all your friends are going there? Or you took a subject/course just because of your friends? Its true, many of us are afraid of changes. We so much want to take a step forward and do something we really want to, but we dont want to do so in an environment that is unfamiliar. Lets face it, we're afraid to be alone. Like it or not, this is one of the main reason why many of us choose a path we dont want to take. We girls just cant seem to leave the guy that makes us cry all the time.
Maybe if we were all bolder enough, there wouldnt be so much unhappiness in this world. Maybe if there wasnt such a word called loneliness, I would be doing things in my life that I really love. Maybe its just the rainy season cranking me up..
I've been thinking about my life pretty much lately. Oh no, do I sound old?? I'm thinking if I'm taking a path that is leading me to nowhere. For close friends reading this, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I didnt think about my life much when I was back in my secondary school days. I didnt think about what career I want to embark on in the future or how many kids I wanna have or what is the maximum age I want to get married. But now, it seems like I'm thinking of so many of these things that I feel like I'm a 21 year old trapped in the body of a 40 year old. Sounds scary? Yea, kinda sounds like a line from a ghost story.
Sometimes, I feel like being bold and just go ahead and change whatever parts of my life I'm not happy with. But I always hold back for god knows what reason. I'm sure many of us feel the same way. How many times have you stayed in a relationship where you know you deserve someone better? Or the times you feel so much like changing to another job because you dont find it fulfilling enough? Speaking from a student's point of view, have you ever choose to go to a school which really isnt what you had in mind but all your friends are going there? Or you took a subject/course just because of your friends? Its true, many of us are afraid of changes. We so much want to take a step forward and do something we really want to, but we dont want to do so in an environment that is unfamiliar. Lets face it, we're afraid to be alone. Like it or not, this is one of the main reason why many of us choose a path we dont want to take. We girls just cant seem to leave the guy that makes us cry all the time.
Maybe if we were all bolder enough, there wouldnt be so much unhappiness in this world. Maybe if there wasnt such a word called loneliness, I would be doing things in my life that I really love. Maybe its just the rainy season cranking me up..
posted by kayeski @ 5:13 PM
6 Comments:
At 11:31 PM, January 08, 2006,
Anonymous said…
nice... "we girls just cant leave the guy that make us cry all the time." sucks. =(
At 4:06 AM, January 09, 2006,
Anonymous said…
I agree with you, i'm stuck at a job that i'm not happy with becoz i dont have the guts to quit :(
At 10:18 AM, January 10, 2006,
Anonymous said…
nice post.. everyone is afraid to be alone, even the bravest soul. Keep up the inspiring posts!
At 10:56 PM, January 10, 2006,
Anonymous said…
very nice graphics your blog.. ya lor, whole day rain..
At 5:49 AM, January 16, 2006,
Xiao Hui Yun said…
Hmm..I think you are talking about growing up here..Hahaha..Confusion, Anger, Depression, etc are just part of growing up..Seem like a bad thing to grow up huh? But it may not be true. Through past experiences, it make one grow stronger. Have confident in urself and take a step forward to make changes in ur life and hence making it happier..
Abt the part girls can't leave the guy that make them cry..why huh?..i also dun understand..Maybe..just maybe..it is because you truely care for that person that why you will cry for him..I dunno..you decide whether it is true for yourself..But sometimes i think we are given a thinking brain and good eyes..why not make use of them nicely and identify harm that will cause your hurt..make use of them to protect yourself..think only yourself know what kind of things will make you happy and what will not...hehe..
At 7:12 AM, January 16, 2006,
kayeski said…
Hi xiao hui yun, first of all, thanks for showing such interest in my writing. :) I agree with you that bad experiences we go through make us stronger people. I guess I'm the kind of person who wait things out and hope sunny days are here to come in a relationship, even when things seem hopeless. That is one of my weaknesses in life. :)
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