I want my life back

My heart flutters everytime my phone beeps. Its not you. You promised to call. Its already Tuesday. You were back there enjoying yourself while I'm here alone picking up the remaining shreds of whatever we have left. Just a message, which will take you like ten freaking seconds, is enough for me. But no, you choose to ignore the people who care about you. Now I'm just worried to death if you're okay.

You talked to me about assurance. Going to your place to tell you how sorry I was didnt make you give in, even though I didnt do anything majorly wrong. You never like calling or messaging me often. It is as if doing so will spoil your ego which is one of the biggest I've ever seen.

You wanted me to be understanding. Havent I been? You asked me to give in when I wanted to stay with you a little longer. Do you remember how you reacted that night? I dont even know how to put it in words here about what happened. And you said you apologised to me a million times. Is sulking like a baby and telling me not to call you after that apologising? I was still there for you when you go, even though you ended the call by hanging up.

There is only a limit to how much one can take. Dont fucking test how much I can take. I have already done enough for you. In fact, I have done too much. So dont talk to me about assurance. Dont ask me to be cool when you treat me like a dirt bag. I made a promise to myself that this year, I'm going to make an effort to be happy. And I will. I wont let anyone bring me down the way you did.

It is time to get my life back...