Feels Good To Be Back

My laptop is back and it feels really really good! Hence, I'm celebrating by the regular updating of my blog!

I wanna give my blog a different look. Something unique but nothing complicated. No girly or pinky shit. I dont wanna turn off the guy readers. Oh well, it'll have to wait till after my tests.

I think I've swear off relationships for now, at least for the time being. Looking at the people around me who are in relationships proves the fact that love is a tricky business. Two people can claim to love one another, and shit can happen. Boyfriends can talk to girlfriends with so much sarcasm that sometimes it makes you wanna laugh yet want to slap the person back. Boyfriends can hide so much fuck from girlfriends that it makes you wonder if all the effort they took to hide stuff was worth it. Yes I know I mention guys as if girls are always the innocent parties. No favouritism here, just my two cents worth from observing people I know and people around me. And not to forget I speak from the experience of knowing the biggest jerk in the world. One who is with someone else and has the nerve to ask me if I still want things. It's like, WTF????? Havent you had enough of playing with me???

Anyway, here's some pictures taken at my cousin's birthday party. I know it's weird how one minute I'm scolding people and the next minute I'm posting happy pictures. Well, life's like this. Enjoy!

Queen for a day

That's all for now. Hang in there people weekends are almost here!

Which One Are You?

Life is filled with heartaches, sorrow and depression. It can only make you so much stronger or shatter you to pieces.

I want to be the first one.

The Past Is In The Past

Walked past a bookstore and spotted a book on "Life Cycle of Homosapiens". What a coincidence, as I remembered lying on Fish's bed about three months ago and noticing this book tucked at the side of his bed. This book talks about the pain and isolation of rejected love: the frustration, expectation and anticipation. At that time when I spotted the book at his place, it didnt struck me as interesting. However, now I was kinda tempted to get that book.

Walked to the VCDs section and spotted "The Rainmaker" on sale. How weird today was, as it seemed as if my past was playing itself right in front of me. We bought the VCDs "The Rainmaker" and "Ghost" about a few months ago, during my May vacation. I havent gotten to watching the Rainmaker, well, because it was at his place, and because he was such a jerk that I packed up and left.

I'll be getting my laptop tomorrow and I cant wait! Sadly all my pictures were deleted and now all I can do is try to get those I can from friends. Good thing I always make a point to send them to friends :) Another good thing was that all his pictures were gone too. Pictures of last year's Christmas, pictures taken at his room, all erased. It is sad, but it is a good thing I know, because jerks like him deserved to be forgotten. Me and Fish actually met up a couple of times this few weeks for lunch. We were trying to work things out as friends, but after he started to tell me things like he missed me and all (he's with someone now), I decide maybe it wasnt such a good idea to remain friends.

It's time to put the past in the past and embrace the present. I know I have so much to look forward to. In a way, I kinda feel bad for the person Fish is with now. Imagine loving someone like him but not getting the same love back from him. I used to hate her, but now I dont anymore, because in a way I know what she is going through. I just hope she knows what she is getting herself into. But at least she will be able to read that book on Homosapiens in his room...

It's my holidays now and I'm so gonna enjoy it to the fullest! Have fun people!!!!

Surprises

Life is full of surprises. You take an unusual turn and discover new things. Some of them good, some of them bad. Unfortunately for me, they are the bad ones. Nevertheless, it amazes me how some people can still discover so much shit about one person and think that that person is worth sticking around for.

It's like the wife who discovers how her husband cheated on her. Not just once but countless times. Yet, she still clings on to him like he's the perfect guy instead of packing up and leaving. Or the office worker who constantly gets bullied by the other colleagues into doing extra work or being the scapegoat. Instead of speaking up, he keeps quiet and takes blame for everything. People with no backbone, is what I call them. It sounds harsh, but really, these people think that the world is unfair to them, when they themselves hold the power to break out of the shit they are in. Why cant people stand up for what they believe in? Why throw it all away for people who make your life miserable?

Anyway, on to merrier things. Went rollerblading today and I didnt slap sunscreen on my body. Now my body's itching and looking a bit reddish and feeling sensitive, and I sure hope that it doesnt get worse. It feels good to get out there once in a while and really let go and enjoy yourself =) Sometimes, all I wanna do is to let go totally and live for the moment, but hey, letting go too much can be dangerous. You live for the moment, but there can be consequences to pay.


I'm gonna get some sleep.

P.S: I think fish hired a maid. Feel bad for her as I think she has a lot of cleaning up to do.

Goodbye For Now

Wanna know what's hot baby? J.D Fortune of INXS! For those of you who dont know who he is, he was the winner chosen from Rock Star: INXS, a TV series to find a new lead singer for the band when their original lead singer died.

Is that hot or what?? Not someone I can bring home to show mom though. My favourite song "Afterglow" from INXS:

P.S: The girl in the music video is hot!



INXS on David Letterman:

On to more serious matters. Me and the girls sent Stella off on Tuesday morning. It was a sad moment as she will be missed for several months.

That's all for now folks. Gotta start studying my ass off!

WE LOVE YOU STELLA!!!

It's disturbing how many girls in this world live their lives for guys. If you are a girl, how many times have you been guilty of only meeting your friends when your boyfriend tells you that he cant meet you for the day? Or changing your plans at the last minute when your bf suddenly asks to meet up? If you have such friends, and these friends call you to meet up, is the first thought that runs through your mind that their bfs probably cant meet them? Or is it always hard to get them to meet you?

I've been on both sides, yes, I've even lose friends because I was the former. Sometimes, even we ourselves find our behaviour pathetic, but then again how many of us really understand the meaning of boyfriends come and go, friends are forever?

The old me had always put him first. I dedicate whatever available time I had for him, the remaining for friends. It taught me a lesson, that you never put your life on hold for any guy. I've lost so many close friends due to that, and usually you never realise what you're missing out on until you lose it. When he and I parted ways, it pains me to think of the lost friendships accumulated over those several months.

All these years, I've counted on two buddies to be there for me through rough times. So far, they've been the most amazing friends one can ask for. Sadly, one of them is leaving us for a few months :(

Here are some of the farewell cum birthday celebration we had for Stella:

WE LOVE YOU STELLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Party Time

Hi all, it's been such a busy time for me. I miss having the luxury to sleep in late and do my own stuff. School has started and I'm so not ready for it. I've already made a promise to myself that I will work harder this semester and so far it hasnt been happening.

Took some pictures with my girls some time back. We were having a mini party and I guess things kinda got crazy. Pei has a really cool roommate ;)

Kissing pictures:

Party of three:

Me and Pei are gonna have Stella's farewell tomorrow. She will be leaving for UK in a few days and we're all really sad. It's hard to imagine spending the next few months without her =( Be sure to upload more pictures soon!

In the meantime, I'm working hard to get a toned belly and the upper pecs have already developed so I'm really psyched to keep on going. Here's to a fitter body!